And just like that, there was a sudden shift… I stopped caring for the person I had to be for others and started realizing the person I needed to be for myself… well kind of. I needed to figure out who I was amongst all the chaos, both behind-the-scenes and front-and-center… It was a journey… A journey with a lot of twists, turns… a journey that tested the shit out of me. It showed me both the good, the bad and the ugly -it was bittersweet and extremely reckless.
Finding myself in the chaos wasn’t easy, there was so much damage done to my soul… I didn’t know where to turn. I didn’t know who would understand me, for the last person I let in tore me into pieces -leaning on them for support to only fall victim to the vary thing that I was escaping. Again, bittersweet.
This is the road to fulfilling my life’s purpose… it is the journey that will ultimately transform my soul on levels that are unimaginable. A lot of healing, growing, learning… wisdom… enlightenment at its finest.