I saw just how ugly the outside world was, as if I wasn’t already dealing with enough, I was hit, not once but twice. First, by my ex and now by this bitch, and excuse me for my language, but that’s just shit you don’t do…. you don’t throw someone under the bus, doesn’t matter what they do, you hold your ground. Take responsibility for your own actions, rather than reverting blame. It truly illustrated “every men for themselves”. It was heart breaking… once again, I let someone in that not only reaped the benefits of my good nature, but also took advantage of everything that came with the relationship. It was sad, hurtful. I gave them so much of me, and yet it meant nothing to them -it was insignificant…. I was insignificant… well at least that was how I felt.
There is a lot that happened within this whole timeframe, both behind-the-scenes and front-and-center that I have yet to share. For some things are still very much apparent in my life at the moment, while others are solely sensitive topics, but again this chapter isn’t about that.
Going back, insignificance is one of the worst feelings, especially after you have given someone so much of yourself. It was a feeling all too familiar to me, a feeling that I kind-of-somewhat-learnt to accept.. kind of sad in a way. Tough love. It is what it is. I took it, accepted it and remembered it…. and I couldn’t do anything. I was even more exhausted than before, I had taken hit after hit, both behind-the scenes and front and centre. What was the point of it all? Fuck it.
Black & White Answers is about the journey of life… doubt and hurt… deceit, pain and love. It encompasses all that is, all that was and all that will be. A collection of poems, which tells more than just a story… They share a journey, the search on how to find, and love yourself amidst heartache. It asks and answers questions which the soul desires while the heart dreads, yet the mind appreciates. It is a clearing…
NUMB SERIES This was a moment in my life that was life changing, eye opening, mouth dropping… a moment where I felt nothing, numb to all that was, it was my way of coping.. until I realized the consequences…
ABROAD This is story about the road to fulfilling my life’s purpose. The journey abroad that will ultimately transform my soul on levels that are unimaginable. A lot of healing, growing, learning… wisdom… enlightenment at its finest.