NUMB SERIES

Numb

Alright! I'm going to keep this piece super lax, conversational, slimming the surface and not diving too deep. The purpose of this piece is to …

Background – Pt. 2

So, here is a bit of background, I grew up in a European household with traditional, yet modern ground rules. My parents immigrated to Canada …

Vicious Cycle – Pt. 3

A lot happened, it was a bit rollercoaster, consistent blows. Somewhat never ending... just masking and to this day still happen but, that's a different …

Front & Center – Pt. 4

Aside from the behind the scence noise, there was a lot happening front-and-center, like I said, I offered patience and understanding to those that didn't …

Flip The Switch – Pt. 5

Now, because I've become such a master at hiding, I have this on-off switch... you know the one you push when enough is enough and …

Bittersweet – Pt. 6

And just like that, there was a sudden shift... I stopped caring for the person I had to be for others and started realizing the …

First Time – Pt. 7

I just wanted to be free... free from all of it. I was emotionally exhausted. There had been so much swept under the rug, so …

Avoidance – Pt. 8

I was addicted to the rush, it was exhilarating... the feeling of nothingness, the escape. It was everything I wanted, freedom from feeling, from thinking …

Shit Got Real – Pt. 9

I did a lot of stupid shit, because I didn't care, I was reckless like I said, the only thing I wanted was to forget …

Betrayal – Pt. 10

You can only deny for so long, you can only avoid for so long. Once you're caught you're caught, the gig it up, there is …

Insignificant – Pt. 11

I saw just how ugly the outside world was, as if I wasn't already dealing with enough, I was hit, not once but twice. First …

No Purpose – Pt. 12

At that point, my parents were ready to talk. They were ready to confront whatever was bothering me, whatever I was holding in, but the …

Experimentation – Pt. 13

And so begins the experimentation.. I revisited the whole scene, the drug scene, but it was different this time around. It was no longer a habit …

After Hours – Pt. 14

I never felt so free in my life, nothing mattered... everything was at your disposal. Now, I didn't try them all, they were just there, …

Ironic – Pt. 15

It was ironic. I was looking for an escape to only find out there was no escaping -there was only masking. It was my life transposed in …

The Bat Cave – Pt. 16

As much as I was consumed and immersed in it all, I was disgusted by everything. There were no morals, no boundaries, no limits, and …

Love-Hate – Pt. 17

There I was tolerating a world I wanted no part of, witnessing people to things that disgusted me, things that went against every fiber of …

Behind The Escape – Pt. 18

As much as I didn't want to be part of that world, I felt nothing. It didn't phase me. I was so numb to everything. …

It Was Over – Pt. 19

It was a crazy weekend of partying, non-stop, once again I had pulled a disappearing act, Friday to Sunday -gone! No where to be found. …

The Opportunity – Pt. 20

And, there it was... the opportunity... the opportunity to end it all. And, I took it! I didn't care what would come of it, much …

Bad Trip – Pt. 21

We walked and we talked... it was good, but it was a hell of a trip... a bad one. I saw my world caving in …

Consequences – Pt. 22

As I said, I was done. And, it didn't matter the consequences, I had a way out and I had to take it. And, I …

Don’t Even Try – Pt. 23

So there I was at the ER under arrest being interrogated. The cops continued interrogating me regardless of my condition, which was somewhat interesting, as …

Feeling – Pt. 24

There I was in a hospital room undergoing detox with two officers at the entrance of my room, one on each side. You would have …

Arrested – Pt. 25

As the night went on, I became more and more aware of my surroundings, all the emotions were making their way into my head, becoming …

Shame – Pt. 26

As much as I was excited that Monday was only a few hours away and I would be able to go home, I dreaded it, …

Recovery – Pt. 27

The recovery process was torture, the body aches.. I could not sleep comfortably for days, I couldn't eat without throwing up, I couldn't walk... OMG! I …

Rehab – Pt. 28

As messed up as the whole situation was, everything fell together nicely. Because, I was high as kite when I got arrested, my defense was …

Bring on Life – Pt. 29

It was enough talking, listening and feeling, it was time to start acting, start actually implementing things... you know put the wheels in motion, get …

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